Well I'm usually a cool person, but today I was an angry jealous person. I was terrible! I was so jealous that Joshua was talking to Pallas and not me. How could I even say that?! Well Joshua hasn't spoken to me in a while, but that's still no reason for me to act that way. I hate it that no matter how many times I try to get Joshua out of my life he always comes back one way or another. I feel so bad, because if Bryon found out that I was jealous then that would give him a reason to be jealous of Joshua. It sucks that I can't make a choice whether I like Joshua more then just a friend or more. On one hand he is such a great person and we have more common interests that Bryon don't have in common. He does know how to cheer my up and he doesn't give up easily.
On the other hand Joshua has had a lot of other girl friends and he has kissed a lot of girls. Also he can drive me crazy sometimes. I don't know what to do though even if I do decide that I have feelings for Joshua. He doesn't have feelings for me, well that's what I think. He probably has a girlfriend, he probably hates me or something. I can't come up with anymore reasons of why he doesn't like me, but I'm pretty sure that he doesn't like me.
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