I have come to a decision that I will make to myself and hope to keep forever. I promise never to talk to Joshua ever again, because it becomes to much drama to add to my life and it doesn't seem worth it to keep trying for no response and a cold shoulder. First of all since I've agreed to be his friend I haven't seen him or talked to him anymore than when we weren't talking to each other, so what really did change? Nothing as far as I know changed and it's starting to get on my nerves that he considers us friends even though we don't even speak to each other. I don't want to have abything to do with him anymore after all he did ask out a girl that was already going out with another guy. Then she dumped the guy after Joshua asked her out. Then the guy that she dumped for Joshua wants to beat up Joshua. I don't want get involved anymore, because first I used to care about Joshua, but now it's starting to get ridiculas how far he will go for a girl. The girl is nice and pretty good person, but she isn't always so sweet, well she's hardy sweet, but she has her moments. Before I didn't have anything against her, but know I hate that she dragged Joshua into that situation. He is a really good guy and he doesn't deserve that. He deserves a girl who is as nice and good as he is, which isn't me. I'm ok with that, because he deserves to be happy.
If he's happy with me out of his life then I'll be happy to exit, and I'll miss him, but if it will make him happy then yes. I don't want to be part of the problem anymore, it saddens me that girl made that poor choice to put both guys in that situation and that she unfortunately has to live with that for the rest of her life. Also that she is that kind of person that does those kinds of things without thinking her choices through and thinking about how it'll effect others and not just herself. I'm not jealous anymore, because Joshua's happy with that girl and they're happy together. I'm happy that Bryon and I are together and I'm sure that Joshua is happy that I found someone great and not someone who is unpleasant.
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