Managing Responsibilities

Follow friends you owe it to yourself to be on top of all of your responsibilities so that you have nothing to worry about and you have time to relax. Learn from the past and you'll see that if you've had an experience with procrastination then you know that it's hard to get back up when you're behind. Don't slack off and let a few things get in you're way of what you want.

Revenge

You want good girl gone bad then you'll get it honey! I'm tired of being little miss saint or whatever I just want to prove them all wrong and gain my bad ass rep back. For some reason I'll missed being me and tomorrow I'll get it! Watch out!

Backstabbed

Today I now know who my real friends are and I don't care if my friend who hurt me doesn't even care or knows what she did was wrong. She thinks its funny to say that my ex is her husband and its not. SHe used to say what a fagot he is and how much of a loser he is, so why would she even say that. Besides she's supposedly my friend.

lol 2 new followers! sweet

Well as far as I know I don't have many people checking out my blog, because mostly people my age don't have one, but soon enough I will have so many followers. Thanks so much for following me. I know the life of a 14 and 3/4 year old isn't so exciting, but it means alot. Also my day was terrific and awesome. No drama, but one of my guy friends was being a jerk. He brought up my ex just to bug me. I know that he thought that I wouldn't notice, but its still an issue with him.
On the other hand summit high school is having a pep rally on friday and the theme is willy wonka! Yay cavities!jk I know they're bad. It's fun, because I love candy and sugar so what could be better? Nothing hehe. I worked the student store and that was fun, but I really had to go the restroom and they were all closed and I had to wait until later in the day. I went with Valerie and Brianna K they're awesome. We were in the student store laughing and having a good time. Of course I was working at the same time and it wasn't a problem sales were kind of slow. Then, when we went to the bathroom Valerie started freaking out beacuse she saw her friend Roberto. She wasn't shy, she was avoiding him, because he kind of freaked her out when he hugged her a couuple days ago in a creepy weird way.lol Over all it was an awesome day! :)

So far so clumsy

I'm the clumsiest person that ever lived! I trip, fall, bump into, crash, and hit the same hard pavement again and again. Yesterday I fell down some stairs yesterday while cleaning up the father daughter dinner yesterday. I was okay afterwards though. I wasn't always clumsy, but lately it's gotten worse. Some people think that its cute how I'm clumsy, but I disagree.

Abysmal

I don't know why I feel bad and I don't think I'll ever know why. It doesn't matter how I got this way to me, but I just want to feel better and soon. I don't know what to say to my friends about how I am, but hopefully the topic won't come up. I don't know if I should talk to someone or keep to myself after I heard that a close friend of mine called me emo. I just felt like not talking at all, because that really did hurt. I don't take things very personally most of the time, but this time it did, because I kind of had a thing for this friend. Now I know what he thinks of me. So, all in all sadness has came and never left, death and despair never from it.

Get Over it

If you were recently dumped you most likely feel like crap, but don't when that person in your life leaves you, nothing is wrong with you and nothing never will be unless you believe that something is wrong with you. Believe that you're beautiful no matter what. Just remember if you still hold on to that person you'll never feel fully complete. You can think about that person all you want, but those memories you had with the person will never come back, neither will the person. If you truely do love the person you should be willing to let them go, because if they're happy it'll make you happy. I know that Bryon will never come back to me, because we're not right for each other and we never will be. I'm okay with that, because now we are both happy even if we are not together. I'm happy with my new boyfriend and he's happy being with his friends. I'm happy for him and I know that he is happy for me. If there's anyone out there who feels that life is hopeless without that special someone please just remember that there's a time for everything and you'll find that special someone one day.

WAT A BUNCH OF BS!

I know that I may not seem like he person to use language as that but when you are being talked down by somebody who is faker than a hobo passing off as a lawyer. I can't stand to be put down by someone who is like that and rude, annoying, and just not cool. That person isn't really the type of person I want to be around, because everytime that I am she has to make a comment about me and it has to suggest either two things; that she's better than me or that I'm something bad. Even though she knows that I don't relate to her because first of all I'm not rude, second I know the line between right and wrong and I respect it, third I don't have a cruel, blunt, and mean sense of humor and finally I don't talk trash behind other people's behinds and assume that the other person won't here about it and everything will just go away as soon as I'm done talking smack about them. I respect people and I respect their differences, but it's certain people who try to pass off as cool or unique, but they're really not and they try to put others down because supposedly that will make them cool, but really that's just not tolerable. I don't see the point in trash talking other people because I don't think that I would want something being talked about badly.
That erson can try to make her self with better with conseling, but I don't want to be put down everyday just so she can feel better, because truth betold I don't want to try and be friends with someone who is just going to go behind my back and talk smack, because if they had a an inch of courage they could talk it out instead of taking the easy way out. All I know for sure is that I don't want to talk to that person ever again because I don't want to pretend that all is forgiven when that person still has a lot of work to do before that can ever happen. Also I don't like the fact that I'm being used for that person's satisfaction and gain, because that is not fair. Also I'm being nice by being the bigger person so that person is just lucky that the authority didn't hear what else that person has done or they would have been toast so there could be worse and if that person does nt stop I will make sure that it will happen.

Vote For Me For Your Freshmen Class VP

Well Today I have decided to run 4 freshmen class vice president and I would like to raise awareness issues about everything that's going on, but not like completely bore the entire stundent body, but like make sure that they know a lot of things. Also I was ASB vp at almeria, so I can list that as an experience and hopefully I won't just have to depend on my luck. I have been known to be very lucky. Also this time I wanted to be President, but my friend Vanessa T. is running for president and I don't want a rivalry thing going on, because that does mess up friendships and I wish her the best!

1st day of high school

Terror, complete terror is what I felt this first day of the next fours years of my life! Entering the doors of my first period class was not as I expected it to be. Matthew and Monica M were both there and so was Nathan. I was hoping for a fresh start with new people with some old friends, but just hanging out with my true friends. Monica M is a good person on the inside, but my and her aren't really buddy buddy. I didn't see her face until after I sat down a few seats next to her. I looked at her then I looked around for anymore people that I knew and thats when I found Matthew and Nathan. I was okay with Nathan, because we hardly ever talk. My butt felt cold at first when I sat down I the wooden desk and sitting below the air conditioning vent, I felt very nervous as I waited for what was to come next. I wasn't afraid of a chain saw freak barging out the classroom. I was just afraid of begining made fun of again, but if that was to happen, again. Last time it happened the teachers saw it happening to me and I went to them for help, but I received none, because they didn't want to get anyone introuble, and they didn't want basically to step up and do want they should. All of those thoughts spun around my mind as I sat there waiting for Mrs. Duncan to begin teaching or something. All of the other students were quite and shy as was I. And so my day was starting off okat but later I was tired. I want the next four years of my life at that school to be fun and exciting, but not too much. I want to be happy and be involved.

awesomeness factor!!

Just trying to keep my awesomeness in check, because summit offers so much temptation, but I won't give in! Never ever going to cheat on my Bryon! I love him (even though at my age I don't even truely understand the meaning or have a full comprehension of love.) I don't want to stroke me ego too much, because too many people already do it for me and eventually if I do my head will get so big that my head will snap right off, so I'm going to keep myself down to earth. Well I probably won't be the most popular girl in the freshman class right away on the first day, but it's going to happen, because (not trying to be concided) somehow people know me and my name and who I am right away when they hear about me and they think I'm kewl, because well I don't really know why I'm so kewl. I have friends and I am a good friend and I'm a good person. I enjoy helping out and giving back. That's just who I am and I can't help it. Also I think that people like me, because i'm skinny and good looking (hey that's what I hear from those people.) And if I'm wrong that I think I am good looking no matter what then I'm not sorry for having confidence. Well I'm happy that I can be myself and I have a fresh start and can make new friends and create memories! :)

New beginning

So i got my classes for summit high school & i'm happy but Bryon isn't going to summit so bummed. Well my friends are going so happy about that part, but I won;t hav my classes with them but hopefully lunch will be in common with us, but if that isn't possible then we'll hang out after school. I want to go see step up 3d so much it looks so awesome, but I want to go see vampires suck on august 18th, because it looks so funny especially the part when the girls on team Jacob start hitting the girls on team Edward with shovels and it's an all out war lol. well school starts Monday and I want to make a good impression and I want to the girl I've always been fun and fabulous! (nerd) Well I don't want to be that girl that everyone thinks is a genius, but I just want people to know that I am smart, but to not treat me any different then anyone else. I also don't want guys hassling me to go out with me, because I already have a man, lol Bryon. Well I 1st wanted to go to summit because of the guys there, but now that I have Bryon and for the next month I can't see him it feels like god is testing my faithfulness to Bryon and that won't be hard at all. I know that I have to be faithful for him to be the same with me. So I won't flirt or cheat on Bryon, because that would be wrong!

Jersey Shore Fever

Oh my god! Jersey Shore season 2 was on last night and it was explosive! Angelina came back and there was so much drama. I don't think it was a good idea for her to come back, but hey it was what she wanted and no one could stop her. But dam! It was heated when Sammi and Ronnie were arguing and I can't wait for the next episode! AHHHH! :)

Burning pain in chest

In my chest it hurts the most. I don't know how it happened, but it hurts to breathe and move. It seems harder and painful to do the things I used to be able to. I don't want to go to te doctor again, because they don't do anything.

upset

Well Bryon isn't going to im me in a while so sad, because I love it whenever we get a chance to talk. He makes me feel happy and special and I love him. (Even though I'm to young to be saying it I mean it.) I miss him so much and hopefully we'll see each other soon. Even though sometimes it may get weird between im I still want to keep the conversation going. He means the world to me. I'll miss him and hopefully we'll im soon enough. But today was great, because instead of pouting or being sad that Bryon and I won't be talking for a while I went to go see Inception witha friend of mine Bree. She's really kewl and her mom drove us there. During the car rides it was funny and alot of laughter. Her and I haven't seen each other since the lst day of school and it was fun to go see a movie, because we sat and talked about how was everything. She is funny and random and polite. maybe next time we hang out we're gonna go see keep pushing so yeah :)

Loving Life

Nothing could be better than now, but things just get in the way. My mom is mad, because at the baby shower yesterday he ran off and no one could find him. Then my mom's friend wanted to help so she asked for my brother's cell phone number so she could call him to see where he is, because he has our phone numbers and she was just trying to help. So I did and my mom scolded me and she kept calling me stupid and lots of other insults and it wasn't even a bad thing her friend was just trying to help. I know her to and she would never call my brother or text him unless he was in danger. SHe was trying to help and my mom was pretending everything was alright but she's not good at that. She was pacing up and down the sidewalk looking and trying to call him. She told everyone there that it was under control, but at the same time she told them that he is a troubled young man. My brother isn't even bad, I understand how my brother is the way he is, because my mother is so over protective and pushy and ill tempered and ignorant. She is mean all the time and she pretends that she knows everything, but she doesn't. SHe always wants to show how pretty, smart and talented I am to her friends, but I hate it. She expects me to be perfect all the time, but she treats me differently than my brother and sister.
It's wow well now so I'll stick it out, but I'll continue about how it goes. So yep

Leave me the hell alone!

When there's something to be said I never do, because I don't want to! People understand naturally how I don't talk about every angle of my life that is negative. I don't complain how I'm not so confident as people assume I am. No one I knew needs to know that terrible memory of how that school year turned out and if anyone did every ask I'd just say I don't remember whick is a lie, because my mind can never forget anything. It's gift and a curse, because I remember everything clearly as every night I have nightmares about that year. Even thought the pain is over it still hurts just to think about it. I feel that I can never forgive Joshua and he should know why and I should never have to explain my reasoning behind that. It was hard to think that I was such a nerd and a loser back then and now I'm this. It hurts to think that the first true guy friend I ever had is a jerk and in my heart it'll be the same.

Ugh

Today I got some bad news. I'm going to Summit High School. ugh. I have nothing against Summit, but it's just that most of my friends are going to A.B Miller and I want to go with them. I just that it should be a good thing, because I can make more friends and create new opportunities for myself. I guess this is where most friendships of mine end. Maybe it's fate that has chosen this for me. I was never that kind of person who always believed in fate, but I believe that everything happens for a reason and to let things take place no matter good or bad. I'll make my own decisions and I'll make my life easier by doing the right things and hanging out with the right groups of people.
I know that I can still be friends with the people I go to school with right now and we don't have to go to the same school to be friends. I've already learned that with my bestie Aracely. We hang out whenever we're available. It's awesome and we didn't go to the same middle school, but we did go to the same elementary school and then and there we decided to still be friends no matter what and it still works out. Well today during leadership period Alyssa let us read two poems her boyfriend Irving typed for her. I couldn't stop laughing, because he spelled so many things wrong and it was just rambling, no offense, but I could write a better poem for Bryon and so I did.
Bryon my lover
I'll tell you
There'll never be another

My heart, my soul
belong to you
every time you're around
I admire your view

Every time you walk me home
I find it joyful when we're alone

All the talks we've had about our days
As I hopefully wish you'd stay

I hold you in my arms for a few seconds
but I hold you in my heart forever

Sounds romantic right? Well it was until my friend Marrisa messed with it.

Bryon my ex-lover
I'll tell you
There'll always be another

My heart, my soul
don't belong to you
every time you're around
I admire someone else's view

Every time you walk me home
I find it dreadful when we're alone

All the talks we've had about our days
As I'm hopefully wishing you'd go away

I hold you in my arms for a few seconds
,but I hold you in my nightmares forever

Pretty jacked up up right? I know! Well I don't think it's that bad, because I don't feel that way, but I wonder if him and I will last? Question mark nesscery! I think I'll write some more poetry about him, because I'm a natural and I get bored like alot!

Sad, but happy, mad you say?! jk no

Well I'm sad that Bryon will not be at school for three days for the county science fair and the renaissance fair for social studies. I'm happy, because since he's gone his friends won't come up and hit on me. They're unbareble, I swear they don't like, and yet they like me for my looks, that's weird. They're weird though so what else am I supposed to expect from them, to be normal? I wish ,but no, lol! I'm also happy, because my relationship with Bryon is starting to get to place where it's comfortable, but it's awkward for me now. He told me that he didn't kiss me, because I would think that he sucks at kissing and then laugh at him. That is something I would never do!

Dam girlz really hav 2 pay attention 2 morals!

I know that at a small age humans can't really tell what's wrong and right, but the parents need to get it through their children's heads that they need to be appropriate. There's a video going around the internet with like 6 girls dancing to single ladies by Beyonce`, and it's really sick as in bad. Those girls were barely dressed and had inappropriate dance moves only a stripper would use. Those girls are only 7 years old! Where were those little girls parents?! They should have been there to pull the plug and say hell no! I mean that no parent should exploit their children! That is just wrong! It' really not cool! Those girls will have to live the rest of their lives with that and they shouldn't have had to! That performance should have been cancelled, never the less shouldn't have ever even been discussed! What's next legalizing elementary school kids to strip in America?! Just outrageous!