Jersey Shore Fever

Oh my god! Jersey Shore season 2 was on last night and it was explosive! Angelina came back and there was so much drama. I don't think it was a good idea for her to come back, but hey it was what she wanted and no one could stop her. But dam! It was heated when Sammi and Ronnie were arguing and I can't wait for the next episode! AHHHH! :)

Burning pain in chest

In my chest it hurts the most. I don't know how it happened, but it hurts to breathe and move. It seems harder and painful to do the things I used to be able to. I don't want to go to te doctor again, because they don't do anything.

upset

Well Bryon isn't going to im me in a while so sad, because I love it whenever we get a chance to talk. He makes me feel happy and special and I love him. (Even though I'm to young to be saying it I mean it.) I miss him so much and hopefully we'll see each other soon. Even though sometimes it may get weird between im I still want to keep the conversation going. He means the world to me. I'll miss him and hopefully we'll im soon enough. But today was great, because instead of pouting or being sad that Bryon and I won't be talking for a while I went to go see Inception witha friend of mine Bree. She's really kewl and her mom drove us there. During the car rides it was funny and alot of laughter. Her and I haven't seen each other since the lst day of school and it was fun to go see a movie, because we sat and talked about how was everything. She is funny and random and polite. maybe next time we hang out we're gonna go see keep pushing so yeah :)

Loving Life

Nothing could be better than now, but things just get in the way. My mom is mad, because at the baby shower yesterday he ran off and no one could find him. Then my mom's friend wanted to help so she asked for my brother's cell phone number so she could call him to see where he is, because he has our phone numbers and she was just trying to help. So I did and my mom scolded me and she kept calling me stupid and lots of other insults and it wasn't even a bad thing her friend was just trying to help. I know her to and she would never call my brother or text him unless he was in danger. SHe was trying to help and my mom was pretending everything was alright but she's not good at that. She was pacing up and down the sidewalk looking and trying to call him. She told everyone there that it was under control, but at the same time she told them that he is a troubled young man. My brother isn't even bad, I understand how my brother is the way he is, because my mother is so over protective and pushy and ill tempered and ignorant. She is mean all the time and she pretends that she knows everything, but she doesn't. SHe always wants to show how pretty, smart and talented I am to her friends, but I hate it. She expects me to be perfect all the time, but she treats me differently than my brother and sister.
It's wow well now so I'll stick it out, but I'll continue about how it goes. So yep

Leave me the hell alone!

When there's something to be said I never do, because I don't want to! People understand naturally how I don't talk about every angle of my life that is negative. I don't complain how I'm not so confident as people assume I am. No one I knew needs to know that terrible memory of how that school year turned out and if anyone did every ask I'd just say I don't remember whick is a lie, because my mind can never forget anything. It's gift and a curse, because I remember everything clearly as every night I have nightmares about that year. Even thought the pain is over it still hurts just to think about it. I feel that I can never forgive Joshua and he should know why and I should never have to explain my reasoning behind that. It was hard to think that I was such a nerd and a loser back then and now I'm this. It hurts to think that the first true guy friend I ever had is a jerk and in my heart it'll be the same.